Selasa, 26 Mei 2015

Not The Ode

jangan minta apa-apa
pada senja
yang ingkar janji untuk mampir ke kotamu
tadi sore
jangan minta apa-apa
pada ayam jago
yang seenaknya ketiduran
tadi subuh
jangan minta apa-apa
pada sang raja
yang tidak bertanya apakah
semua budaknya sudah makan
jangan minta apa-apa
pada kucing
yang main hilang-hilangan
setelah diberi ikan
jangan minta apa-apa
pada laut
yang tak lagi sudi memulangkan
kapalmu

Sajak Jikalau

 I
Boleh jadi jika sengaja dipisah jari kita
selebar laut yang tidak lagi menguak rahasia kematian
nelayan buta pecinta senja,
supaya kita mau belajar
makna kesunyian
supaya tidak saling kita mencengkram
pada bimbang yang nir-kesudahan
supaya kita lapang dada
pabila esok kita melupa
dalam nyanyian kematian

II
Sebab di darahmu yang panas
mendidihkan lautan berombak beringas
yang menyesatkan hiu putih gigantik
pada pantai yang airnya sebatas gemericik,
tak pernah aku merasakan
kekurangan
tak pernah kau mengeja
lagu-lagu putus asa
tak pernah kau ajarkan
kepengecutan

meski kamu paham betul aku emoh mengindahkan

III
serta ombak yang hanya menggelitik jempol kaki itu
berani-beraninya beralkisah
kelakarmu di bawah senja kita yang entah kapan
sehabis bibir keenakan pagut-pagutan,
jumawa sekali kau mengatakan
 “Bukan sembarang alasan ketika Tuhan mempersengajakan pertemuan.”
Lalu aku tersipu

Kamu hafal betul
Aku bukan yang gampangan tersipu

Senin, 25 Mei 2015

A Boy With The Melancholy Eyes

If I said you were my sleeping pill,
Would you let me bite you out of your skin?
If I said your ribs were my favorite ribs,
Would you let me play yours like a violin?
If I said you were the sands of my shore,
Would you be left in my shoes when I am gone?
If I said you were my bedtime story,
Would you pardon my yawns and keep story-telling?

Tell me something special the demons from the deepest hole of the sky not even know
Tell me something the moon surrender to your puzzling puzzle
Tell me, just tell me
something that makes the walls of your bedroom stay pondering
something that keeps the likes of Amelie Earheart sky-wandering,

or you just could just simply ask me,
“Is my hair the fragrance of your pillow even though in our lifetime we haven’t slept together?



                                                                                  

Kamis, 07 Mei 2015

A Meeting

I ever dreamed of meeting with my love interest for the first time on a corner of nowhere; the dreamlike place like a lonely grassland under the starry night with his skin spilled beautifully by the moonlight droplets, or on the top of the hill with the reddish-yellowish twilight witnessing us when our eyes first met the sight and saying hi.

Maybe I ever imagined of catching up with my love interest on a coffee shop (although it seems cliche, anyway) while we are waiting for our pals with an Espresso to go, or simply i just meet him on the college library when we are in the same shelves, looking for the similar wanted books. Or maybe, in a simpler way, the universe may just set him in a front of me while we are in a same train, with him wearing a shirt that fits his body gracefully, coming home from  a shitload of works or a busy college stuff.

“Well, I met someone I love on a bus stop. The wind blew his curly hair. He was stunning with that heavy-framed eyeglasses, and that unforgettable grin with a teeth braces on. It was a magical morning, and a more magical one I’ve ever had when I found out that we’re in the same college!” My friend told us how she met her desirable guy.

“How about you?” She asked my other mate.

“Well, it was an easy one to meet him. We were in a same class back then, and one day we had this class project and we did it altogether as a team. It was blast, you know... We spent many times together. I never forget how he smells.. How he called my name for the first time. Oh, too bad, he never knew how it felt like.”

“Mine was fortunately splendid, too. We met on the gigs of our favorite indie band. He was a hardcore hipster with parka and bucket hat. His appearance was way too angelic with his kinda taste of music. Then, we danced to the music till overnight...”

“Now, how about you?”

“Ah, me?” I paused at once.

“How did you meet someone you like? Your love interest?” My friends restating the question.

It left me speechless, while suddenly, I can draw his face in mind: he was the man of my dream, the man of my current future fantasy. I can feel anything. I can easily hear his voice inside my head calling my name whenever I want to. I can easily remember how he entertains me with his freaking random jokes.  I can easily draw how he sounds, how he smiles, how he touches my hair softly with his fingers, how he put his arms around my waist.

Should I tell them how I met my love interest? Should I tell them how I met the man of my dream and how beautiful he was? But it’s not like what I ever imagined: we met on a corner of nowhere; the dreamlike place like a lonely grassland under the starry night with his skin spilled beautifully by the moonlight droplets, or on the top of the hill with the reddish-yellowish twilight witnessing us when our eyes first met the sight and saying hi.

No, it ain’t happening that way. It happened in the wildest way of my life this far; the unpredictable time and space, or we could just say that,

"I found him via Tinder."



Selasa, 17 Februari 2015

The Sleeping Spell

You, the guy I rhapsodize over
Through words, I devour your existence closer
Through prayers, I bestow the sweats you excrete
when you kill the routines with your weary breath
into the most beautiful serenade that the world ever pour to your bed!
(My silly spell pacifies your winsome sleep, does it not?)

Nighty night, Hurricane
I hope the droplets of moonlight from the west
will keep your sanctum safe from the anguish face of nightmares,
and spoil your snore with the universe's best selling fairytales
Until you open your eyes,
you'll realize how the whole universe are having a feast
and putting up their wine glasses
when they find out that, someone I crawl over, awaken from his bed, alive
And ready to festive the sun to arise

P.S. have I mentioned I miss you?

Jumat, 23 Januari 2015

The Visit

He finally visited her. He said he missed her so much, but she knew he just got bored and wanted to fool around --she knew. She was okay with that.

I love you for so long.

She made love to him in her room. It was her dreamlike night. She couldn't help to contentedly devour or be devoured every inch from north to south. In the bed of joyously she cried in happiness.

"I think should go home by now." He said that just 5 minute, literally a 5 minutes after he finished. She was so disappointed --and terribly devastated.

Just go home, dickhead. Go to your lovely wifey. She might wait you to come home and had made you delicious dinner. Her tummy might be residing your first awaited baby to be born.

"No, don't go." She cried.